Double Whammy Today

So of course I have a slight obsession with John Mayer and his music. Nothing out of the ordinary for a fan of love songs like myself.  I don't know how or why...but his lyrics and music are able to really help calm my thoughts. Sometimes they lead my thoughts in the direction they need to go. Today I am putting two songs in, because both of them seem fitting for how I am feeling about a certain aspect of my life recently. 

Pretty much...the one who has half of my heart doesn't have what it takes to get the whole thing, and I just can't keep loving him with half of it. AND really...I think friends might be the only thing he & I will be able to be...because obviously lovers hurts too much and nothing just doesn't work either. Hurts a little to not have each other in our lives...right now anyway.




"Half Of My Heart"

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
Showing me another way and all that my love can bring

Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
Oh, with half of my heart
With half of my heart

Your faith is strong
But I can only fall short for so long
Time will hold, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you [x3]
But I can't stop loving you with half of my...

Half of my heart
Half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who's never truly loved anything

Half of my heart
Half of my heart
Half of my heart
Half of my heart
Half of my heart
Half of my heart 






"Friends, Lovers Or Nothing"

Now that we are over
As the loving kind
We'll be dreaming ways
To keep the good alive

Only when we want is not
A compromise
I'll be pouring tears
Into your drying eyes

Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never be the inbetween
So give it up

You whisper "Come on over"
Cause your two drinks in
But in the morning I will say
Good-bye again

Think we'll never fall into
The jealous game
The streets will flood
With blood of those who felt the same

Friends, lovers, or nothing
You see
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never an inbetween
So give it up

Friends, lovers, or nothing
We can really only ever be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
Don't you know
We'll never be the inbetween
So give it up

No we'll never the inbetween
So give it up

Anything other than 'yes' is 'no'
Anything other than 'stay' is 'go'
Anything less than 'I love you' is lying... 

This song kinda makes me laugh...but I LOVE it.

This song actually has no relevance to my life. I think it's hilarious and the music is great.

John Legend
"Number One"
(feat. Kanye West)

Ooh I promise not to do it again
I promise not to do it

You can't say I don't love you
Just because I cheat on you
Cuz you can't see all I do
To keep you from knowing the things I do
Like erase my phone
And keep it out of town
I keep it strapped up when I sleep around
Well I should have known one day you'd find out
But you can't go and leave me now

You know that I love you
There's no one above you
I said it the last time
But this is the last time
Don't make me over
Cuz I can be faithful
Baby you're my number one
You're my number one

Now who is she?
What's her name?
You don't need to know about everything
We fight about this
We fight about that
You hang up the phone and call me right back
Well I'll never be something I'm not
Please don't throw away what we've got
Cuz we've been together for way too long
I was playing around but I'm coming home

You know that I love you - know that I love you
There's no one above you - no one above you
I said it the last time - hey, hey
But this is the last time
Don't make me over - don't leave me baby
Cuz I can be faithful - you know I try
Baby you're my number one - baby
You're my number one

[Kanye's Rap]
I keep you laced up so you aint gotta borrow nothing
From them broke ass friends who be bargain hunting
They say they shop on eBay --baby why is they frontin'?
They be on the internet but they never cop nothin'
I keep you in Girl what is those on your toes?
And your neck staying froze off that rose colored gold
I suppose you was told by them hoes I was cheatin'
Thinkin' my heart don't got nothing to do with my penis
He got a mind of his own and he just be seeing shit
And I don't wanna cheat but I don't be saying shit
I try to jack off he ask me who is you playin' wit?
But I know he love you he told me you was his favorite

You know that I love you - know that I love you
There's no one above you - above you
I said it the last time - said it the last time
But this is the last time - hey hey hey yeah
Don't make me over - don't leave me baby
Cuz I can be faithful - you know I try
Baby you're my number one - oh baby
You're my number one

You're making it hard for me
You're messing up everything
You tell me I gotta leave
Say we over
You saw that she came over
Came in the Range Rover
Left with a hangover
Say we over

I promise I won't cheat
I promise I won't lie
I promise I'll act right
Say we over
You can't tell me
I can't have you
I can't have that
We aint over

Hey, it aint over baby
We aint over
Oh you don't need to go it's not over
We aint over
Oh...
We aint over
Oh it's gonna be alright now don't go now 

Another Day - Jamie Lidell

I certainly do love this guy...his music is so..just awesome. And this song...kinda fits. Another day to open up to you...whoever you may be. And if you want to show up anytime...I feel like I am ready for you.

Another Day by Jamie Lidell.


Another day, another way
For me to open up to you
Another day, another way
For me to open up to you
I used to always... I would wake up all day
Only to find there's nothing more to say
Now I'm letting silence to the talking
Now I'm letting silence to the walking
Another day, another way
For me to open up to you
Another day, another way
For me to open up to you
I used to scream when a whisper would do
Only wanted yours, all over you
Now I'm letting silence to the talking
Now I'm letting silence to the walking
Another day, another way
For me to open up to you
Another day, another way
For me to open up to you 

Love Song for No One

So I have had a lot of random thoughts about love lately...mostly about the one I thought I loved the most.  The one I thought I was meant to be with. Every day I would go back & forth...realizing it wouldn't happen...then thinking it could.
Well...I've finally gotten a grasp on my thoughts and shook all the nonsense out. He's not the one, and if he is, the opportunity most likely won't come back into our lives for years. Definitely not anytime soon. 


Granted, my internal clock is ticking...and I know my time for "the one" will come along soon. That guy won't come into my life until the time is right...and I am excited for that right time to happen. I'm not going to be over-anxious about it, or try to make something out of nothing. Just gonna let life happen. That's how I got here...doing what I am doing...


So to conclude my little intro here...this song seems to fit quite nicely with how I have been feeling. Yes, I am tired of being alone. I am not sure who I am looking for...and he can hurry up and get here...but until then...I always have my blogs. Haha. Whoever that man is...will be ONE lucky man when the time comes. 


Thank you JM for this oldie..yet oh so goodie...


Love Song For No One lyrics
Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it 

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here 

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one 

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here 

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away? 

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

I'm maybe just a little bit "crazy"

So I've been a little addicted to this song lately...and I haven't posted a song up in forever. There are so many reasons why people like a song and I think this one is just aaaaaall around awesome. Great lyrics, great voice, great music..just great. 

Alana Davis - Crazy lyrics

You've got your home of the brave
And I've got my land of the free.
You conform to what society says
And I conform to me.
Looking for light in the corners,
Getting caught in the spider web.
You look at me as though I'm giving a performance.

When I'm just feeding my head.
And you know that I'm doing alright
And I won't explain myself to you just to avoid a fight
How I'm living ain't correct,
But for me, its just right
Chorus:
I'm not completely insane.
I'm maybe just a little bit crazy.
There's no one to blame,
Got no shame 'bout my game,
Don't want nobody to save me.
I've got a pair of ruby slippers that
I don't wear much anymore
And if I had the nerve,
I'd click my heels and return
To the wonderland I knew before.
I'm waiting on a slow boat to China,
Gonna sail away to the sun.
I've been searching for myself,
And I know I'm gonna find her
If I break away from everyone.
So, the way that I act may not fit in.
Just because I have a mind of my own,
Doesn't mean its a sin.
I don't ask you to give up;
Don't expect me to give in.
Chorus
Some like to live for the moment,
Taking life into their hands every day.
And if they don't get killed,
They get so high off the thrill,
They could float to heaven anyway.
And others want to save for tomorrow,
Thinking money is security.
Well, I understand the need,
But I don't get the greed.
Y'know, they all seem pretty crazy to me.
You can tell by the expression I wear.
Though I seem a little strange to you
I don't really care.  I've got the freedom to be;
There are others like me everywhere...