Long Distance is hard :(

You'd think I would be used to it by now. I have experienced long distance in many ways throughout my life. My dad was a long distance father for as long as I can remember...still is. Went through an interesting long distance relationship, which, until recently, I thought still had a chance of becoming something. I know now 100% it's never going to be anything and am actually super okay with it. I also am dealing with being long distance with my family and friends back home. It's so hard to be away from the ones I love and care for so dearly. My mother, my little sister, my wonderful, amazing, beautiful, smart and awesome niece. She is my favorite person on the planet. Hands down. I also recently have established a strong connection with someone new who is long distance, and even though it's scary and takes a lot every day to keep me trusting the whole thing, I am excited to see what happens with it. I have been able to realize a few factors of myself that I was oblivious to prior to talking to him...and I'll admit...I am really happy. REALLY happy. Scared out of my fuckin' mind, but happy all the same. You can't let fear take over of what could be happiness for you. I had a lot more to say here...but I don't want it to be a full-on blog post. Just my song of the day. :) The new long distance situation is one that makes me get butterflies in my stomach, makes my heart race, sometimes even makes my heart jump up to my throat. It makes me worry, it makes me vulnerable, it makes me doubt and it makes me trust things I normally wouldn't. It spins my mind in circles and it causes my thoughts to be clouded over by someone who makes me feel so amazing. SO -  even though long distance sucks..sometimes it's worth it. And I am ready to see if it is or not. Either way...this song fits. Obviously this situation has been on my brain a lot - I am trying to even it out with the rest of what my brain needs to focus on, so tomorrow (yes two days in a row for a S.O.T.D.) will be about something totally unrelated to the heart. <3

I gotta say too...the extra (aaaahs and oooh-oh-ooohs) in this song make me laugh. Just seeing them in print is humorous to me. I don't know why. Haha. Yay for laughing. 

"Long Distance" by Brandy

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time.
And I'm running out of things to do to get you off my mind (oh whoa).
All I have is this picture in a frame (oh ah),
that I hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where I'd rather be,
but we're stuck where we are.
It's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me,
but we're stuck where we are
it's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.

It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

Now the minutes feel like hours
and the hours feel like days.. (whoa oh whoa)
While I'm away (way-ayyyy)
You know right now I can't be home (ahhhhhh)
But I'm coming home soon (ahhhhhh)
Coming home soon.. (ahhhhhh a hahhh)
All I have is this picture in a frame (ahhhhh)
that I hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where I'd rather be (where I'd rather be..),
but we're stuck where we are (oh oh).
It's so hard, (oh ah) you're so far.. (oh ahhh)
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me),
but we're stuck where we are (oh oh)
It's so hard, (oh ah) you're so far.. (oh ahhh)

Can you hear me crying?
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (ohh-oh ohh-oh)
Ooooh woo whoa ah ahhhhhhh oh ahhh (oh-oh ah!)
Uh ahhh uh ahhh whoaooooohh ah (ohh-oh ohh-oh)

With you is where I'd rather be (where I'd rather be..) whoaaaa!
(but we're stuck where we are) oh!
(it's so hard) So hard (your so far), so far
(this long distance is killing me) This long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me) meee..
(but we're stuck where we are) Stuck where we are! So hard! So far
This long distance is killing me

It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, you're so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

There's only so many songs that I can sing to pass the time....